April 5 (Wish It Worked Like That)

I still see look through pictures all the time
'Cause throwing them away just don't feel right
No one teaches little girls to grieve
Believe me, there's days I could barely breathe

It's sunny in July, I'm with my friends
They get it, but I still pretend
Shouldn't it be easier by now
Everyday there's a new way to miss you, mom

Sometimes I hate God for it, is that bad?
Sometimes I feel mad at you, isn't that sad?

You gave me a fresh start and a strong will
And a broken heart that's been through hell
You gave me your sweet laugh and your soft heart
And a kind smile and real love
And I'd give my whole world to get you back
Damn, I wish it worked like that

Your oldest daughter is everything to me
She's been the solid rock when I lost everything
I see you in her passion and her smile
You'd be proud
I hope that you'd be proud of me

Sometimes I hate God for it, is that bad?
Sometimes I feel mad at you, isn't that sad?

You gave me a fresh start and a strong will
And a broken heart that's been through hell
You gave me your sweet laugh and your soft heart
And a kind smile and real love
And I'd give my whole world to get you back
Damn, I wish it worked like that

Can somebody help me? I'm losing myself
I'm searching for hope in the depths of my heart
They say there's tomorrow after all our days
They say there's a heaven where all hearts can pray

Not saying I believe it and I'm not alone
But these days all the questions show what I don't know
I've tried every vice, every prayer in the book
I'm done with the questions, I just want you home