King Of The Worst

I want out of my skin
Now that I never win
I've been cold ever since
Ever since I caved that night
Knew my head wasn't right
Every night asking why I don't want to confide

I don't open up a lot I'll just wash it down with like 20 shots
Pass out and that's when I stop
Need novocaine until I rot
Almost 2 years of a mental block so far down never over the top
Don't block me out I'll still be here with no doubt

I've been working on breathing I think that it's helping
One month of progress and I'm still here melting
But that's okay
It takes some time
I got so many problems I may never define
Kept everything to myself for what felt like forever
If I could ask you for help I would've done it way before November
I thought the ending was never If I could only have a wish then I would wish to get better

I'd much rather be yours than a corpse
We can run away on a fucking dark horse
Ditch our own lives and find a new course
Now I'm breaking even with the king of the worst