Close for Casualties

Well what is this
Life I'm choosing to live?
Do I exist outside of this impetus?

What do I have to give
Why do I point the blame
You know I warned of this
But I still let you play

It's the same smile
Same name
I said and did it alone
You're the one thing that changed

Truthfully,
I can admit
If anything,
You still mix in these currents

Well no that's not quite true
No I didnt notice then
But now Ive noticed you
And the words are so irrelevant
If I could liberate you
These tangles I walked you through
But there really is no use
In shaking the stitches loose

It's the same smile
Same name
I said and did it alone
You're the one thing that changed

Truthfully,
I can admit
If anything
You still mix in these currents
I bleed
A contradiction of needs
You held so patiently but I just turned and burned it

Was it vagabonds or the vacancies that split my inch dichotomy?
That spelled you close for casualties,
Or the dividends that break amends ?
I tried to entertain within
A worthy rationalization

It's the same old smile
Same name
I said and did it alone
Not one things the same

Truthfully,
I can admit
If anything
You still mix in these currents
I bleed a contradiction of needs
You held so patiently but I just turned and burned it