I Did What I Did

Friday in neon, the girl to the left of me’s jaded
She can’t feel her face
I’m on the roof, way too sober for this conversation
Can you give me some space?
My best friend’s acting a fool, she’s had too much to drink
Her visions blurred, she thinks that he’s been staring at her
But he’s looking at me

The guy that she’s here for’s a drag
Feeling me up when she turns her back
I kissed a boy and he tasted like cig
Everything happened so quick
I don’t remember his name
Or even the reason I came
I’ll never see him again
Can’t say I’m proud but I did what I did
2am phone calls, you’re still on my speed dial, I hate it
But are you still up?
Talkin’ in the other room, so she won’t hear you sayin'
That she’s not enough
Truth is I just want attention, I’m not still attached
But if you wanna tell me I’m the best that you've had
I’m cool with that

I’m showing up at your house
You know you shouldn’t come out
I blame the past, I blame the night
For making me think this was right
Screw all the feelings I just
Wanna be feeling your touch
I’m kinda lonely, I’m kinda lit
Can’t say I’m proud but I did what I did

The guy that she’s here for’s a drag
Feeling me up when she turns her back
I kissed a boy and he tasted like cig
Everything happened so quick
I don’t remember his name
Or even the reason I came
I’ll never see him again
Can’t say I’m proud but I did what I did
I’m not normally this unholy
My priorities are abnormally
Disproportionally filled with uncertainty
Take my mentality, give me morality