If I Was Gay

If I was gay, would I be
What they say, just a stereotype?
If I was gay, how do I get to heaven
When there's no church in the wild?
Tried to be honest
But honestly I can't
No, I can't
If love is the same
Why is this not the same thing?
The same thing

I've never kissed a boy
Would I like the way it feels?
Picturing his face, and I lose a piece of me
Play me all the classic love songs on repeat
None of them talk about what I feel

I've never kissed a boy
I've been trying to fit in
Kept a candle burning, a lamp unto my feet
Play me all the classic love songs on repeat
None of them talk about what I feel

If I was gay, there would be no friends left
And I don't want that
If I was gay, my mum and dad would treat me
And I can't handle that shit

Tried to be honest
But honestly I can't
No, I can't
If love is the same
Why is this not the same thing?
The same thing
I've never kissed a boy
Would I like the way it feels?
Picturing his face, and I lose a piece of me
Play me all the classic love songs on repeat
None of them talk about what I feel

I've never kissed a boy
I've been trying to fit in
Kept a candle burning, a lamp unto my feet
Play me all the classic love songs on repeat
None of them talk about what I feel

All the time I've wasted
Trying to replace
The part of myself that was keeping me straight
It just made me a product of it

So where do I fit in?
Nothing can replace
The scars on my body
Can't talk to nobody, I'm numb

I've never kissed a boy
Would I like the way it feels?
Picturing his face, and I lose a piece of me
Play me all the classic love songs on repeat
None of them talk about what I feel