Love/ Hate

Misery loves company
But I'd rather be alone
My false romantic tendencies
Have made themselves at home

Like alcohol, these helpless thoughts
Impair my mind
My judgment may be gone
But I'm sure that I'll be fine

I'm not lost
I'm just waiting
I've been loved
I've been hated

I'm not well
I'm just jaded
I'm in love
And I hate it

Lullabies to sing at night
As the walls watch me muse
Of bluer skies and butterflies
And mindless platitudes

Bitter-sweetened memories
Impair my brain
But at least I've got my dreams
To spare me pain while I'm awake

I'm not lost
I'm just waiting
I've been loved
I've been hated

I'm not well
I'm just jaded
I'm in love
And I hate it

I'll be fine
I'm just needy
I don't mind
I'm just bleeding

Hope you're well
'Cause I'm still healing
Why is love
So misleading?