Ghost Of You

I’ll leave again tonight to feel stable
I promise I’ll call you back when I’m able
So many things I need to say to you
In hindsight I’m happy I knew you
And I wonder if you’re happy tonight
I went home and nothing felt right
I see the ghost of you
In corners a younger me knew
In hindsight I’m happy that I knew you

I’ve never been good at change
Still never able to keep things the same
I wish that in the moment I knew
That would be the last time I saw you
As you get older it gets more apparent
That nothing is ever completely transparent
There’s more you’ll never know
In the things they’ll never show
In hindsight you’re always alone

If this is goodbye
I’ve got some things to get off my mind
If this is goodbye
I’ve got some things I don’t want to die with by my side

When was the last time you said my name
Should I feel guilty for saying yours again
I know you probably curse it now
But I still care somehow
If it’s wrong I don’t care I’ll keep quiet
I think I’ll reach out but I know I’ll never try it
I see the ghost of you
In corners a younger me knew
In hindsight I’m happy that I knew you

If this is goodbye
I’ve got some things to get off my mind
If this is goodbye
I’ve got some things I don’t want to die with by my side
Tonight
I’m happy that I knew you
I’m happy
I’m happy